I was feeling really bad about it and beating myself up when I happened to find Brené Brown's book on my audio bookshelf. I could literally hear her words in my head (that's why I love audiobooks). Imperfections are not inadequacies. She's right, today I felt closer to you, my readers, than I have in a long time because those imperfect moments, those times of pain or struggle bring us closer together when we face them, when we share them, when we let ourselves be vulnerable and truthful about the parts of life that tear our souls apart. Only togetherness can heal those wounds. However you find your togetherness, through church gatherings, AA meetings, family get togethers, drinks with friends, or reading or writing messages, words, creating images here in internet space, when you can be truthful and find acceptance through that, healing begins regardless of your physical or emotional state when you came to the table. We are all wounded, we are all scarred, we are all together in that experience and in our resilience and love for each other.
My struggle is what originally brought me the calling to write. My desire to reach out to others & share my story is what pushed me to create a blog even though I was terrified of the vulnerability that could bring. It did of course lay me open & exposed but as with all things, it made me stronger, more self assured, and more open to love and support which I desperately needed and appreciate each day, especially days like this one. Stepping out of that nest and into the wind is the bravest move we ever make towards flight and the only way we ever truly learn to fly.
I feel my wings spreading, I feel the sun on my skin. Through the pain & muck & misery comes perserverance, joy, togetherness, and the incredible breath of accomplishment. I do feel accomplished today. I feel on the cusp of creating something great and I'm not sure exactly what this is or where it leads, where I may be brave enough to take it, but I feel the growth of something bigger than myself and that has been the strongest medicine today. Pain has driven my writing and so today I bow into my pain, I pose through my yoga, and I say namaste. The goodness and light in me sees and acknowledges the goodness and light in you. There is goodness from every death, there is growth from every failure. In fact, we must experience these things at some time in pour lives, often many times, in order to grow and become our best selves, our truest, bravest, most beautifully vulnerable & powerful & free selves.
We are worthy of love today. We are worthy of accomplishment & growth and joy. We are not immune to failure, to missteps, to pain & struggle and sorrow, we must create those immunities through exposure. Don't spend your life looking for the vaccine to your discomfort, spend your life taking chances that will make you more open to the bad yes, but more importantly, making you ready to receive the good.
I hope that tonight you feel free and joyful & that you spend little time on regret or self loathing. We are a beautiful bunch of people with so much to offer. I hope you take the chances & the steps & offer up your discoveries to the world. We need more of that bravery. We need nothing but ourselves to do great things, we are enough. Never forget that the ones we love are part of that word ourselves, the ones who truly know & love us are the deepest part of ourselves. Seek to be seen & known today. There is so much about you to love.
And thank you to all those who have been there for me. Your mere presence as a reader of the blog brings me strength. When I am in my darkest hours I feel that I am known & accepted & loved and that eases my burden. Keep reading, keep sharing, keep doing what you're doing. You don't know what it means to me. I hope it means something to you, too. You are deep and wonderful souls. I know that because I feel the energy coming to me, the prayers and thoughts and moments of inspiration. We are all in this together. I've said it before and it bears repeating, we're all in this together, that's the only way life works. My love to you this evening and all the evenings to come.
Lots of Love,
**I DO NOT own the rights to the materials linked above. Those belong to Dr. Brené Brown, her publishing company, and TEDx Programs & the Sapling Foundation.