Then I was scrolling through my newest group on Facebook, Chronic Pain Info, and came across this image.
I use Smile.Amazon.com to subscribe to the suppliments I need so that I don't run out or forget about them. I love the service. It's much cheaper than my local pharmacies and my non prescription medicines are delivered right to my door. I would recommend it to anyone whose doctor has recommended daily suppliments or who has mobility issues or chronic pain which can make a trip to the store unbelievably painful & exhausting.
I love the service & it's completely changed my life, honestly, but for some reason this week my calcium/magnesium/vitamin D suppliment did not arrive. What? I was going through a lot at the start of the week when I was putting together my medicines for the next seven days and just didn't notice that a major player was missing. Until yesterday...after a week of agony. Ugh.
I was beating myself up because I've been doing this for over a year now, managing my medicines to try & stay out of the hospital. How am I still making mistakes? The answer is simple; I'm human. I'm not a robot or a nurse and even then I'm sure I would still make mistakes. I usually know more about my medications and what they do than most hospital staff. This was just a mix up. As Samuel Becket says, "No matter."
I will try again, I may fail again, I will fail better next time. This process of learning to live with chronic illness is first and foremost about learning to pick ourselves up when we're down, to learn instead of loosing, to fail better until we succeed.
Today I hope that whatever goal you're working towards, whatever issue you're managing or attempt you're making in life, that you go boldly, that you give it your best, and that in your small failures, you learn everything you need to know. Falling down is the only way we learn to fly.
Lots of Love,